"Having no parents is better than having my parents." This is also true for me. I ran away from home at sixteen, cut my gaslighting sociopathic mother out of my life permanently at twenty-two. I tried to have a relationship with my father, but at twenty-six I finally laid a boundary requiring that he treat me with a certain minimum of decency if he wanted to interact with me.

He made his choice, and it wasn't me, so I've had no parents since. It hurt -- it hurt that my father didn't think I was worth the effort of treating me well, that I missed out on all the love and nurturance that parents are supposed to provide.

I'm 51 now, and I can tell you that the hurt does fade over time. You've only had a few years to heal, whereas I've had decades: I no longer have a searing open wound, but a scar of faint sorrow. Ending contact was the big, important step that stops reopening the psychic wound and allows healing to begin.

I'm happy for you that you found the bravery to do that for yourself. And thank you for using the platform of your celebrity to talk about such important, personal things. For those of us who must find and make our own families, it helps when we feel less alone.